Why do you love me? So often
people ask this question to obtain affirmation and assurance. Deep inside each
one of us we have desire to be accepted and loved. Most of time this comes with
a hefty cost: pretending to be someone that you are not. We try to please
everyone so that we could be up to their standard. The thing is we have several
weaknesses and so many people to please. How complicated it is to manage the
combination of which weaknesses to be covered for which person. Even if we
could manage this well, how much energy that we need to burn to be different
characters and personalities than who we really are?
It is always great if we could be who we are but it is greatest to be accepted for being who we are. I even pondered at one point of my marriage that if I were my wife I could not even tolerate and accept the real Raimond is. I just could not stand Raimond!! If I myself could not even stand me, what is the chance that somebody else could accept me for who I am without murmuring and holding a grudge against me? If I were to place a bet on this what would be the odd?
One over hundred, one hundreth, 1/100. That odd might be too generous, knowing how weak I am and how annoying I could be. If someone is going to place a bet on this, surely he is ready to loose his money as the probability is against all odds. Maybe he has some money to burn to avoid some taxes or something. Else he might be the eccentric guy who likes to go against the flow just because he enjoys it and willing to pay a small price for that enjoyment.
I am willing to give everything for the person who would genuinely believe in me and accept me for who I am. That is why I gave my life to Jesus. Not only He is willing to place a bet on me but He also make sure the against all odds' probability to happen. To be able to do that He has to pay over the odds for me. He gave His own life to pay for my sins, my issues, my incompetencies, my weaknesses, and my insecurities. He paid the debt that I could have not been able to pay myself. In essence He sacrificed Himself to be the replacement for my life. Definitely He is paying over the odds for me.
A lot of times I just could not comprehend and grasp why somebody would do such a selfless act for me. Against all odds God Himself came down to earth to be human and paid over the odds for me to have freedom through His sacrifice on the cross. All of this is for 50/50 chance that I might or might not accept nor appreciate His sacrifice. There is quite fair possibility that He came down to earth, suffered and died on the cross for nothing. I could not imagine why would someone does that. He could have just stayed in heaven and enjoyed all the privileges being God but instead He left everything behind for all of us.
I guess it is all about Him and His character. He is love and He can't deny Himself. He just could not let us wander around, suffer and die without hope and a chance to be the person He has prepared us to be. Knowing this we could take heart that we will not be forsaken and abandoned for what we have done. Nothing that we ever do that could change the fact that He is love. I just could imagine if I were sheep and under His care I could rest assure that He is a Good Shepherd. No doubt in my mind if I am one of His 100 sheeps and I am lost He will leave the 99 and come looking after me. 1/100. If He has done against all odds and pay over the odds once on the cross then He will definitely do it again.
Weak. Unqualified. Hopeless. That is who I was. Loved. Accepted. Forgiven. That is who I am after what He has done against all odds and over the odds.
It is always great if we could be who we are but it is greatest to be accepted for being who we are. I even pondered at one point of my marriage that if I were my wife I could not even tolerate and accept the real Raimond is. I just could not stand Raimond!! If I myself could not even stand me, what is the chance that somebody else could accept me for who I am without murmuring and holding a grudge against me? If I were to place a bet on this what would be the odd?
One over hundred, one hundreth, 1/100. That odd might be too generous, knowing how weak I am and how annoying I could be. If someone is going to place a bet on this, surely he is ready to loose his money as the probability is against all odds. Maybe he has some money to burn to avoid some taxes or something. Else he might be the eccentric guy who likes to go against the flow just because he enjoys it and willing to pay a small price for that enjoyment.
I am willing to give everything for the person who would genuinely believe in me and accept me for who I am. That is why I gave my life to Jesus. Not only He is willing to place a bet on me but He also make sure the against all odds' probability to happen. To be able to do that He has to pay over the odds for me. He gave His own life to pay for my sins, my issues, my incompetencies, my weaknesses, and my insecurities. He paid the debt that I could have not been able to pay myself. In essence He sacrificed Himself to be the replacement for my life. Definitely He is paying over the odds for me.
A lot of times I just could not comprehend and grasp why somebody would do such a selfless act for me. Against all odds God Himself came down to earth to be human and paid over the odds for me to have freedom through His sacrifice on the cross. All of this is for 50/50 chance that I might or might not accept nor appreciate His sacrifice. There is quite fair possibility that He came down to earth, suffered and died on the cross for nothing. I could not imagine why would someone does that. He could have just stayed in heaven and enjoyed all the privileges being God but instead He left everything behind for all of us.
I guess it is all about Him and His character. He is love and He can't deny Himself. He just could not let us wander around, suffer and die without hope and a chance to be the person He has prepared us to be. Knowing this we could take heart that we will not be forsaken and abandoned for what we have done. Nothing that we ever do that could change the fact that He is love. I just could imagine if I were sheep and under His care I could rest assure that He is a Good Shepherd. No doubt in my mind if I am one of His 100 sheeps and I am lost He will leave the 99 and come looking after me. 1/100. If He has done against all odds and pay over the odds once on the cross then He will definitely do it again.
Weak. Unqualified. Hopeless. That is who I was. Loved. Accepted. Forgiven. That is who I am after what He has done against all odds and over the odds.
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